My Painter

1 month after that event, I feel lost spirit for step for today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and go on. That event can’t I forgot. Maybe, as long as my life. Need 1 day for like him, need 1 month for love him, but need of the same age for forget him.
“Len, do you want to have a lunch?”, Nara said.
“No, thanks! I will lunch here.”, I said.
“Don’t be sad again. I see you often pile up. Still thinking about him?”, Nara said.
I just quiet.
“Come on, Len! It’s already 1 month after he go. He is happy there. Life must be go on.”, Nara said.
“You right! Thank you, Nar!”, I said.
“By the way 1 month later, I’ll go to France.”, Nara said.
“Hah?? 1 month later?”, I said.
“Yes.”, Nara said.
“It’s not felt! You will go there.”, I said.
“Whereas, I still want here. Because of you. Hehe…”, Nara said.
1 month past, it’s time to Nara go to France for continue his study.
“OK! I must go now! Take care.”, Nara said.
“Be careful! Don’t forget give me a news. Good luck!”, I said when at airport.
“I hope I can followed you go there.”, I said.
“I promise, I will show Eiffel in front of you.”, Nara said.
“I’ll wait your promise!”, I said.
“Bye…!”, Nara said.
“Naraaa… I’LL BE MISSING YOU!”, I said.

The change of year holiday is past, I walk my activity like usually. After 4 year past, I be granted from Rome University. Suddenly, my phone is noise.
“Hallo!”, I said.
“Elen, it’s me, Nara!”, Nara said.
“Nara! Hi…”, I said.
“Congratulations! I bring you some flower.”, Nara said.
“Thank you! Some flower? What you mean?”, I said.
“Look at behind you!”, Nara said.
When I look at behind, I see Nara.
“Nara??”, I said.
I approach him and I hug him.
“Nara, how can? You here? I can’t believe it!”, I said.
And then I free my embrace.
“Yes, I miss you! So, I go here. This is flower for you!”, Nara said.
“Thank you!”, I said.
“Have a event again for today?”, Nara said.
“Nothing. Why? We have a lunch together?”, I said.
“Yes.”, Nara said.
“Where?”, I asked.
“Not here.”, Nara said.
“What you mean?”, I asked.
“We lunch at the France.”, Nara said.
“Hah??? France? Are you kidding?”, I said startled.
“No, I’m not kidding. I’m serious!”, Nara said.
I can’t believe it. Nara want to bring me to France.
“Come on! You must prepare.”, Nara said.
We go to France. It’s like a dream. Same like when I arrive for the first time at Italy. I stay at Nara’s home. Now, he is work at one of the hospital there. 2 days past.
“Len…Elen…!”, Nara said while knock my door.
“Yes!”, I answered.
“Wake up!”, he said.
“Yes, I’m already wake up.”, I said while open my door.
When I open my door, I see Nara bring a cake of birthday.
“Happy birthday, Elen!”, he said.
“What is that?’, I asked.
“Today, it’s your birthday.”, he said.
“Oh…I near forgot. Thank you, Nar!”, I said.
“OK, now you can blow this candle.”, he said.
And then I blow that candle.
“Happy birthday, Elen! I hope what your dream come true.”, Nara said.
“Amien..!!!”, I said.
“Tonight, I want we go to one place.”, he said.
“Where?”, I asked.
“That’s secret.”, he said.
“Nara…please tell me.”, I said.
“No, I want make a surprise!”, he said.
“OK!”, I said.
When night at 07.00 pm o’clock, we are go to one place. I don’t know where we go. All along in the travel, Nara close my eyes with a cloth.
“OK! Now, we arrive.”, Nara said.
“So, open my eyes, please!”, I said.
“OK! 1…2…3…!”, he said.When Nara open a cloth at my eyes, the first time I saw lights which shine in everywhere. I’m so startled when I saw in front of my eyes there is one of miracles in the world. Yes, it’s EIFFEL

“Nar, it’s Eiffel?”, I asked.
“I present Eiffel especially for you, Helena!”, Nara said.
Really… I can’t believe it. I stand in front of Eiffel. It’s my dream. But now my dream come true.
“Nar, thank you very much!”, I said.
“This is my promise. I promise to show Eiffel in front of your eyes.”, he said.
“Nara…I don’t know what can I say. It’s more from enough for make me happy in my birthday. Très bien, merci ! (Thank you!)”, I said.
“I do it just for you!”, he said.
I just quiet after hear what Nara said. It’s really…I like to hear that.
“Do you know, Len? Il y a des larmes d'amour qui dureront plus longtempsque les étoiles du ciel. The tears of love flow more long than turn up the star in the sky.”, Nara said.
“Waw…really…?”, I asked.
“Yes.”, he said.
“It’s beautiful sentences.”, I said.
Suddenly, Nara take something from his trousers pocket. Do you know what is that? it’s a ring.
“My Helena…My Painter…Would you marriage with me?”, Nara said while set that ring to my finger.
What is that? What Nara doing? I’m so startled. It’s like a dream.
“Nar, are you serious?”, I asked.
“OUI!(Yes!)”, Nara said.
I’m so confuse. What can I do?
“Please…answered!”, he said.
He is a kind men. He is can make me happy. But, it’s so quick. Nara bow his face.
“Are you really serious?”, I asked.
“Yes, Len I’m serious!”, he said.
“OUI!(Yes!)”, I said.
“What?”, he asked.
“Yes, I will.”, I said.
“Are you serious?”, he asked.
“Yes, I’m serious. If you serious, I will.”, I said.
“Très bien, merci !(Thank you!)”, he said while hug me so close.
I feel be a women the most happy in the world. Thanks God!

My Painter

“Len, look at! It’s…”, Nara said haltingly.
And then I look at to the people who pointed by Nara. Do you know who is that?
“Hah??? Anthony??? He is Tony?”, I asked startled.
“Yes, he is Anthony.”, Nara said.
I just quiet and continue see him. I can believe it! I see Tony in front of me.
“Nar, it’s dream?”, I asked.
“No. it’s real.”, Nara said.
With slow, I approach to him.
“Anthony? Are you Anthony?”, I asked.
He is just quiet look at me. He look so confuse and look like thinking about something. And then Nara also approach him.
“Tony? Is it you?”, Nara asked.
He is keep quiet and look at me and Nara with close observation.
“Nara?”, he said.
“Anthony? it’s real you are? Oh…my god!”, I said can’t believe.
“Yes, I am Anthony. Are you…Elen?”, he said.
Without thinking twice, I hug him. Oh…God! Thank you! Finally, I find him. I’m straight to hug him. I feel, I don’t want to free my embrace.
“Yes…I am Elen, Helena.”, I said while free my embrace.
Tony can’t say and do anything. And he smile at me.
“Elen, how are you?”, Tony said.
“I’m fine. Thank you! How about you?”, I said.
“Very well. Why you here? What are you doing here?”, he asked.
“I am… I just…”, I said.
“She followed you.”, Nara said.
“Oh…Nara. How are you? Long time no see. ”, Tony said.
“Very well.”, Nara said.
“Followed me? To come here? To Italy?”, Tony asked.
“Yes, she followed you until here.”, Nara said cynical.
“Elen? It’s true?”, Tony asked to me.
“Yes, that’s true. I followed you until here. Why? Can’t believe it?”, I said.
“I’m not suspicion! You can do it. How can? How can you are come here?”, Tony said.
“It’s long story. It’s not important for you.”, Nara said.
“Why you so cynical to me? Are you angry with me?”, Tony asked to Nara.
“No, I’m not.”, Nara said.
“So, why you look at me like that? Like angry with me.”, Tony said.
“What do you mean? I don’t understand.”, Nara said little angry.
They look like want to dispute.
“What happen with you? Don’t dispute, please!”, I said.
They quiet, after I say like that.

“Sorry about Nara! He is sensitive.”, I said.
“OK! No problem.”, Tony said.

And then we sit at the grassy field in that garden. We discuss all about life each of our. included about my feet.

“You look more…beautiful…”, Tony said.
“What??”, I said.
“Don’t be touched!”, Nara said.
“Nara, don’t say like that!”, I said.
“Why? What’s wrong?”, Nara said.
“No, Nara isn’t wrong. He is right! I’m touched you, Helena.”, Tony said.
I’m so startled what Tony say. He is Tony? Nara look more resentful. Suddenly, Nara pull my hand and force me to go from there.
“Come on, Elen! We must go now!”, Nara said.
Nara bring me to leave Tony. He bring me at home. He force me to go.

“I’m sorry, Len!”, Nara said while arrive at my apartment.
“Whats wrong, Nar?”, I asked.
“I don’t like with Tony’s attitude. He is not direct know with you. He almost forget you! Can you aware?”, Nara said.
“Yes, I know! That’s important, he remember me. So, what the problem?”, I said.
“I also can be resentful when he said you look more beautiful. He is look like haven’t sin with you. Whereas, he has been missing. Never give news, never telephone. But, look his face. He is like haven’t a mistake. He is never care with you, Len! Aware, please!”, Nara said.
I’m start to thinking! What Nara say Tony is never care with me, isn’t it? How about my feeling with him? He is never knows.
“Yes, I know. But, you has been broke my happiness for today. We are already to search him. Now, we find him and we let he go! I’m so disappointed with you!”, I said.
“Whatever you say, up to you! But you blind with him. It’s clear he is not care about you, moreover he is forget you. Why you still hope of him? Isn’t useful!”, Nara said.
I more confuse with Nara’s attitude.

The following day, Nara still angry with me. I didn't know what must be done by me so that he is not again angry.
“Nara…please forgive me!”, I said.
Nara just quiet while eat the breakfast.
“Nar, say something!”, I said.
“What?”, Nara said.
“Don’t angry with me again. Forgive me!”, I said.
“I’m so disappointed with you! I don’t like if Tony come here to meet you.”, he said.
“Why?”, I asked.
“Because…I don’t like!”, he said.
“OK…OK!!! I know. But, forgive me OK!”, I said.
“Hmmm…”, Nara said.
“What must must be done by me so that you not again angry with me? Tell me?”, I asked.
“I don’t know!”, he said.
I’m so confuse with him.
“Hmm…how about go to Colosseum? You are not yet go there, isn’t it?”, I said.
“Pisa?”, he asked.
“Yes, Colosseum. This is one of the seven miracles in the world.”, I said.
“Are you serious?!”, he said.
“Of course! Why I must lie.”, I said.
“OK! We go now.”, he said.
I’m happy to hear that. I think Nara is not angry again with me. He look happy. at 12.00 pm o’clock, we go there. Nara so enjoy there.
“Len, it’s very wonderful! I like it!”, Nara said while take the picture of Colosseum.
“Yes, I know. It’s very beautiful. Are you happy, Nara?”, I said.
“Of course! Thank you!”, he said.
“Your welcome! “, I said.
“Can we here until night?”, he asked.
“Night?”, I said.
“Yes, I still here until night. I think at night it’s more beautiful.”, he said.
“Why not?”, I said.
“Thank you, Helena!”, he said.
Until night, we still there. We sat in the available seat there.
“Waw…it’s very beautiful! Look at, Len!”, he said.

“Yes, it’s beautiful!”,I said.
When Nara look at the right, he someone who sat in the seat that was not far from our seat sat.

“Len, look at! He is Tony.”, Nara said.
“Where?”, I asked.
“There!”, Nara said.
“Oh…yes. He is Tony.”, I said.
“Come on! We go there.”, Nara said.
“Nar, you are usually angry if you see him. Why you want to there?“, I asked.
“No! Today I feel happy because I can see Colosseum. So, I’m not angry with him again.”, Nara said.
“OK!”, I said.
When I and Nara walk to approached Tony, someone coming.
“Waw!!! Nar, he was the famous painter. I think, he is Tony’s friend.”, I said.
“Maybe!”, Nara said.
When we close by Tony, we are so startled. You know why? We see the man kissed the Tony's cheek and they embraced. Our step is stopped.
“Nar…what I see that?”, I asked.
“I don’t know!”, Nara said.
I’m so startled. Is he Tony? I’m just swallowed my spittle.
“They? What they mean? What they are doing?”, I asked.
I can’t say something. My feet feel difficult to step. My body feel so limp. With slow, we approached them. When we so close with them, I hear something. I hear Tony say something with the man. I’m so startled to hear what Tony say. Do you know what Tony say with the man? “Ti Amo”. That’s the sentences what Tony say. Tony whisper to the man while continue embrace him. The sentences have the meaning. “ I LOVE YOU”. That’s the meaning.
“Ti Amo, Tony! (I Love you, Tony!)”, I said drip my tears.
When hear what I say, Tony look at me and free his embrace.
“Elen?”, Tony said.
I can’t say something. I just drip my tears.
“Elen…I’m…”, Tony said.
I don’t know what I’m doing now! I run to go leave them. I just can cry to see all of that. I want to run…far…far…away!
“Eleeeeen…!!! Wait…!!!”, Nara’s scream.
I stopped run.
“Len, are you OK?”, Nara asked.
I just cry and cry.
“I’m not OK! What happen, Nar? What I see that, it’s true?”, I asked.
“Len, be patient! I know it’s very difficult!”, Nara said.
“Why it’s happen like this? Why? Why, Nara? Why?”, I asked while cry.
“I don’t know, Len! I hate Anthony!!! he is so bad.”, Nara said.
And then I sit where I stay.
“Len, wake up! It’s the road. Don’t sit here!”, Nara said.
I’m direct cry. I can’t stop my tears. And then, Nara sit besides me.
“I’m sorry, Len!”, Nara said.
“About what?”, I asked.
“I’m sorry because he is my cousin. I’m so shy about him. Sorry!”, Nara said.
“It’s not connected about you, Nar! I’m so stupid! I’m really…really…stupid!”, I said.
“Be patient, Len!”, Nara said.
Nara stroke my back.
“You must be strong! I’ll always besides you.”, Nara said.
My tears can’t be stop. What I see, it’s like a dream. It’s nightmare!!! Help me, Ya Allah!!!

The following day, i feel so afraid. Be afraid to face for today. What will be happened today? I don’t know. Suddenly, the door is knock.
“Nar, can you to open the door, please!”, I said while I cook.
“OK!”, Nara said while open the door.
“Who is that, Nar?”, I asked while I see to look who is that.
When I look, oh…god! He is Anthony.
“Tony??? What are you doing here?”, I said cynical.
“Elen!!!”, Tony said.
“Get out! I don’t want to see you again! Especially here, in my apartment! Go!!!”, I said drip my tear.
“Len…calm down, Len!!!”, Nara said.
“Helena…please listen me! I just wanna clarify about tomorrow. Please!!!”, Tony said.
“What clarify? It’s not need a clarify, you understand!”, I said fed up.
“Len, the incident at tomorrow it’s true. What you see, that’s true! Actually, I like a man. I don’t like a women. You know now!”, Tony said.
I just quiet after hear Tony say that.
“What? That’s…true??”, I asked unbelieveable.
“Yes. That’s very true!”, he said.
“Why you say now? After it’s too late for me to love you.”, I said.
“Because I never know how about your feeling to me.”, he said.
“My feeling?”, I asked.
“Yes, your feel. I don’t know are you love me? Like me? Or hate me?”, he said.
“Ton, once moment at Indonesia I say with you about her feeling to you. I say she is love you.”, Nara said.
“I know! But it’s not enough! That feel come from Helena to me. Not from you to me, Nar”, Tony said.
“What for I say about my feeling? It’s not important with you! Finally, you can’t response my feel. Isn’t it? You don’t love me. You haven’t that feel like what I feel in my heart for you.”, I said.
Tony just quiet and bow his head.
“And…why you never give me a news as long as you in Italy?”, I asked.
“I…I…just…I’m very busy, Len!”, Tony answered.
“How the busy? Until you don’t have a time to give me a news.”, I said.
“OK! I’m sorry about that!”
“Why you do it to me? Why me? It’s so sick, Ton! My heart is so sick!”, I said while cry.
“I’m sorry, Len! I don’t know what can I do now! But, it’s me Anthoy. The painter man who love a man.”, Tony said.
“I know! It’s my mistake. A big mistake. Sorry!!! I never response your feeling.”, Tony said while drip a tear.
I don’t know what I can say again.
“Now, it’s clear! It’s up to you, Len! Are you want to forgive Tony or not.”, Nara said.
“Yes, I’m forgive you, Ton! But…please…after today is happened…consider...I had...not been.”, I said.
“What??? What you mean, Len?!”, Tony asked startled.
I can’t repeat that words. It’s too difficult for me to say that.
“Don’t meet me or call me again. I want to forget all about you! Please…!!!”, I said.
“So, it’s you want?! OK! I understand. If it’s can make you forgive me, I believe and do it. Grazie mille, Helena! Mi dispiace! Arrivederci! (Thank you, Helena! I’m sorry! See you later!)”, Tony said while go leave me and Nara.
Before he go, he kiss my brow. I just can cry. I can’t stop my tears. Maybe this tear, can be dry after he go. Tony is gone!
“Tony…!!! Wait…!!!”, I scream.
Tony stop his step and look at me.
“Can I hug you like the first time I meet you again at the painting exhibition event? It’s for the last time, Anthony.”, I said.
He is just smile. Without say the word, he hug me so close.
“I’ll be miss this embrace, Ton!”, I said while hug him.
“Me too!”, he said.
He is the first man who can make me feel about love. he is make me strong and make me not easy give up. Make me feel how to fight get what we are want. And of course make me feel how the true love. He is my first love. Grazie mille, Anthony!(Thanks, Anthony!) U will always be MY PAINTER!